よくほら
自分を信じろって言うじゃん
でも俺わかったかもしれない
自分を信じるだけではダメなんだ
他人のことも信じられないとダメなんだ
俺の場合、課題は徹底的にそこだわ
深刻な他者不信、故に、噛み合わない歯車
それが現実的な思考だと思い込んでいるようで
紙一重、自分で思いっきり
ブレーキを踏んでいるのかもしれない
ほぼ無意識なんだと思う
しかも自分で思ってたのよりも
何百倍も不信感が深い
いったい何が原因なんだと
自分でも訝しがるくらいに
広告砂漠地獄を徹夜で彷徨った末に
これ、悟りひらけたんじゃね？笑
今、手が震えてるもん
それはカフェインのせいかな笑
You know how people always say,
“Believe in yourself”?
But I think I finally realized—
it’s not enough to just believe in yourself.
You also have to be able to believe in others.
And for me, that’s exactly where the challenge lies.
A deep mistrust of others—so the gears never quite mesh.
I’ve convinced myself that’s “realistic thinking,”
but maybe, just a hair’s breadth away,
I’m actually the one slamming the brakes on myself.
Almost unconsciously.
And the mistrust runs hundreds of times deeper
than I ever thought it did—
so deep that even I start wondering what on earth caused it.
After wandering all night through this advertising-desert hell,
maybe I’ve had some kind of enlightenment?
My hands are shaking right now.
Though maybe that’s just the caffeine.
Dan Mitchel 